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Well, you know all along i was so busy complaining and blaming everyone about everything. Most likely, i could not stand why everyone or other girls specifically seems like don't have a problem with moving on and in such a short time they got the replacement aka the new boyfriend. The truth is my friend, it's not like im super lonely or i hadn't even a single man make a move on me. The more i think about it, even the moment before i break up there is someone who's waiting on me and even right after i break up, but i was so blind and stupid to even realize or accept the truth.

Anxiety and trust issues got you real bad and made you lose a lot of things in life or maybe that's just the way it is. But, i've been told many times i am loved by everyone and other man, sincerely. I just can't bring myself to believe it, ever. And by the time i'm writing this blog, i just lost another great guy and mourning over the bad guy. Hm i've realized this for like 3 years now, i recognize the problem but i still don't have the solution. I actually realized 3 years ago, but on daily basis i just forget about it and encouraging my anxiety just grow even more, but sometimes like this night i remembered it from time to time.

Can anyone told me how to love and accept myself?

Can anyone told me how not to love the wrong person and pushes away the one who loves us truthfully?

I still believe one day there's gonna be someone who makes me feel at ease and comfortable in my own skin when i'm around him and actually help me to m=improve my self and i accept him.

Trust me, you do not want the butterflies in your stomach. Because, if he's the one then all you need is comfort and that's how you want to feel when you're gonna spend the rest of your life together.

Okay, back to my case. Let's pray for may health both mentally and physically.